Category Archives: Daily Thoughts
My husband’s birthday is next week. I have been thinking what I could get him. It’s just that he doesn’t seem to want anything. Asking him what he wants, doesn’t work. He doesn’t even know what he wants.
And I don’t think I can beat last year’s present. I got him tickets to the New Orleans Saints game vs Green Bay, which Saints kicked butt and broke the record for the most points scored in the Superdome by the Saints.
Amazing game, glad we were there.
I thought about getting him football tickets again, but this year is a little harder. Most games are already sold out. And he’s been working longer hours than before. So I don’t know if he can make it to any of the game dates.
What should I do?
A friend said, “The older the parent gets, the CRAZIER, they get.” I certainly feel that way. My mom has crazy, restrictive norms. Her way of thinking is very outdated and to the point of being strange.
1. No single friend may spend the night in your house.
2. Any female friend, whether single or married, will have sexual urges around your husband.
3. The business is your family. If you want control of your life, take care of the business.
More or less, I understand, men will cheat. So will women. But trust is very important to me. If I don’t trust my husband, I wouldn’t have married him.
I want to go to a shrink. I feel like I need an hour or so to vent my frustrations. Because my husband is not a very good “therapist” (listener).
I thought a husband will listen and help solve my issues. But no, my husband does not have the knack for that. He just lets shit pile on and on until I am way too stressed.
I need to refocus and gain my balance back. I cannot plan my business actions like I used to. It has taken me so long to do just one single task on my To Do List that it’s starting to scare me. I’m not in a rut. Alright, alright. I’m in a rut.
Managing business rut.
But I know the root of all my problems. My crazy mother.
I was planning to name this entry “Treadmill ACTION” but I thought Determination was a better word. Determination all in all motivates me to ACT. I hate exercising… well who doesn’t but, it is sooo good for me. It’s hard to make excuses.
It has been 4-5 months since I stepped on a treadmill. That last time was a week before a wedding in January. I had to fit my dress. Unfortunately, by the time the wedding rolled by, I could barely fit. So after a 20 minute treadmill workout, I was exhausted. My body was achy, sweaty, and I felt like crap.
My sides hurt, my back and shoulders felt like it was in tatters… like someone shredded my tendons and ligaments and pulled my limbs from its sockets. 20 minutes and yet my entire being was about to shut down.
I drowned myself in waterto hydrate myself. The aches subsided and by the end of the day I was myself again. I feel better after the workout. I think I’m at a stage in my life where I can make free time for myself.
The baby is getting older. She’s more independent. Later she’ll be in pre school most of the day. I need to start a tight schedule. I really awful with schedules. I want to fit in a couple of different classes, such as Spanish classes, maybe MBA classes, and even hiphop dance classes. Maybe I’ll pick up Violin lessons again.
In business school, I was told that by stengthening a company’s buying power, you should be able to reap in better returns. In a way, that’s what I want to do. But in a totally different market.
I have an urge to shop. And by strengthening my guts to just buy the stuff I want, I’ll be able to reap in the valuable items I want. On the other hand, that means I have to work my butt off to pay off the credit card. I’m not looking forward to that though.
I feel like I’m going through withdrawal of a drug. I’m frenetic, snappy, cranking, and jittery. All the makings of a junkie. But it’s not for drugs. It’s for shopping.
It’s been a while since I shopped. For clothes, jewelry, shoes, or purses. I have been just working, taking care of Megan, and working!
All of a sudden, it hit me – this shopping frenzy – this urge to do some damage to my credit card. And the idea that I might be sinking a whole in my credit card isn’t even phasing me. Something is really wrong with me!
I’m only 27, but on days like this, I feel like I’m 75 or older. My back was achy when I woke up this morning. It wasn’t painful just achy and sore even though I haven’t exercised or lifted anything. Well except my baby but she shouldn’t make me sore. Maybe I slept too much. But then why was I still tired this morning.
Lately, my feet is tingly when I first get up. It’s like my feet fell asleep while I was sleeping, but shouldn’t that make my feet numb immediately? What is going on with my body?
I should probably exercise more. But there is not enough time in the day for me to fit in a workout much less drive to the gym. Yes, the gym is about 10 minutes away but it’s still not close enough for me. I have the treadmill at home but not the weights or the resistance equipment.
I need to cut work short and go exercise more often. I’m starting to feel really stressed. My neck is constantly tense. The muscle there in my neck is sooo knotty.
Yup 75 year old.
I am not a frugal person. I love to shop and find something I would like. But sometimes, I find something I like but I wouldn’t even wear it. Don’t know why. I have tons of clothes with tags.
At least, it hasn’t gotten so bad lately. But I’ve been feeling the itch to shop.
Yesterday I bought a purse. I regretted now, because I don’t think I need a new purse. I still like my old one.
Why did I buy the new one? It was leather and free Express NEXT DAY shipping.
yeah, really good deal. Should I mention the purse’s name is “Pay My Tab.” I thought it was funny. fitting really.
So I’m online again. Window shopping through the pages of the internet. Wondering should I buy this pretty ballerina looking dress when I don’t have any where to go. No wedding, no party, no business gala…